this post strike me

This is such an eye opener.

My life, my work-life so far, could be described in these sentence:

For the first couple years you make stuff, it's just not that good. It's trying to be good, it has potential, but it's not. 

But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And you taste is why your work disappoints you.

This is so true.

I always feel ashamed and disappointed because of my works. I always feel "No, it's just not good enough", "No, I know I can do better than this, but why can't I?", "No,  this is not good at all, I'm not talented. I took the wrong major. I should QUIT".

It drives me crazy, sometimes.

I know that my works not good, but I don't know how to fix them.

Those 2 sentence explain it all.

Maybe that's because I'm a beginner.

With a lot of practice, my works eventually might be better in the future.

It says to make something every week.

That's actually is my problem!

I have many ideas, but I NEVER make them happen.

I always tell myself I don't have enough time to create them,  I know that's a lie.

I do have the time, it's just I don't have the guts to start.

I'm too afraid.

I'm too afraid it will not be as great as I expected.

Yes, I have a very high expectation of myself, and it always haunting me when I don't fulfill it.

On the other hand, I know without that practice, eventually my sense will become dull.

And I'll blame myself forever.

I just have to fight, now.

Or I'll never make it,

I need to create something, NOW!