The Moment

Chris Gardner: "This part of my life.... This little part in here....is called Happyness."

If some of you don't know what picture is above, this is the scene towards the end of Pursuit of Happyness film when Chris Garner finally had just been offered a job, walked outside the office, and then clapped his hands together as he walked through a crowd of people, elated about his accomplishment and burst into tears of proud.

That feeling... must be very beautiful.

This is the moment I've waited dan wanted since I saw the film.

I don't know at what moment I'm gonna have that feeling. Perhaps when I got a job I want so bad, or winning an exclusive award, or else. My boyfriend said, he once got that feeling as he walked out the final defense room at university, he specifically described it by comparing to this scene. About a month ago, as I finished my final assignment and walk out from the defense room, I feel nothing. No glorious or proud feeling, just relieved that it was finally over.

I want to have that feeling, but the bigger question is am I ready?

Everytime I get a little offer, I am always scared. And that's why I am wasting this whole months doing nothing because I'm scared to get near that moment. I'm scared the answer might not as I expected so I keep prolonging my dreams by doing nothing.

I know eventually I have to leave my comfort zone and take the leap, it's called growing up. And by that time, I swear to God when that moment finally come to me, I'll say "This part of my life...is happyness"

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P.S.: This film is in my top 3 favourite film of all time. Yes, it is that great.
* Don't mind about the misspelling on happYness word. You should watch the film to understand what it means.